Alleah Collins: AKA SangLeah
"Neva Lose Confidence”
March 1st will always hold a special place in my heart. Not only would I be in the most excruciating pain but most importantly BLESSED with a bundle of joy who would change my life forevaaaa (cardi voice haha). He entered this world right on time and although some things in my life had to be put on hold, it didn't matter to me because I knew I served a bigger purpose now, I became a MOTHER.
Now my little munchkin should have known from being in this womb, mommy was a talented individual. From the studio session I had with Ash Bash, belting out those notes while him being in my belly, to those sleepless nights up writing songs & rubbing on my belly, even dancing all over the place thinking I’m a Hot Mama (lol). I told myself once he was born I would go even harder. But TBH things did get a bit hectic when it came to continuing on chasing my dreams.
Just hopping up and going to the studio or joining my music fam at their performances or even me performing wasn’t at all what I could do. It was MOMMY TIME, MOMMY TIME, AND SOME MORE MOMMY TIME. Which I didn’t have a problem with, but I will admit in the back of my head I couldn't help but to think should I give my music up & dedicate my life to nothing else but being a Mom?......
It got trickey as heck for me, after all the hardwork and dedication I did put toward my dreams nothing but doubt was going through my head. Would I still look good enough to perform or will I lose all the relationships I built because now I’m a mom. Would people not take me serious because of stepping back and having to take a break.... After all those doubts that ran through my head, I took a step back and realized my life was just beginning in a whole new light. I now have a mini me who is constantly looking up to me and counting on me to be the BEST I CAN BE. By throwing away all the goals and aspirations I had for myself, it would have most likely put me in a sad place. Which we all know, being sad leads to nothing but a negative space that nobody deserves to be in. Nothing can compare to knowing you have someone looking up to you watching your every move,, and if there is nothing you get out of this blog feature please understand to NEVER GIVE UP on what it is you want to do in this beautiful thing we call Life. I know this may sound a little cliche but Dig deep and realize whatever you put your mind to YOU CAN DO IT. Whatever Life does throw at you, catch it and handle it as if you were Kobe on that basketball court or in my case Alicia on them Keys. Promise you it’ll all be worth it in the end. I LOVE YOU SON! AND THANK YOU FOR KEEPING MOMMY ON HER TOES :) YOU THE ONE !!!!!!